Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Damnit. Trying not to cry...

I'm here at work waiting for the patients to leave, looking forward to having the day off tomorrow...however, how good can it be? I have to take care of my speeding ticket and do my taxes. Ugh. Might also get a haircut. Fun times!

It has been a hellish couple of weeks, leaving me a little drained and not in a creative mood. It makes me wonder where did the time go? I will be 35 this year and I feel like I've been at a standstill. My brother is going to travel all over Europe, my little sister is going to graduate next year, my sister has two beautiful but crazy kids. Where am I?

Just stuck.

Before I drone on for hours, there will always be a part of me that wants to kick my own ass for not doing the things I wanted to achieve at this point in my life. But one cannot dwell on the past because it won't help change the future.

I will just focus on the happy such as my family is healthy and huge, I have good, non-drama hungry friends, and I'm with someone that makes me laugh and feel loved. I am beyond grateful.

This is for everyone I love. Thank you for being you.